Well hello there nearly end of 2018! How fitting that we meet. My how much has changed! Let me catch you up, I moved to Melbourne, that’s right I finally got here after many years of trying. I have a beautiful apartment in the city, am meeting some amazing new people, eating a lot of beautiful food and exploring this incredibly creative and vibrant city. What is not working is my body, after a few years of indulgence and neglect I have finally reached the point where I avoid mirrors to look at myself. This is when I knew the situation was dire and if I didn’t do something I would continue to head down this shame spiral and things could get a lot worse. Part of moving to Melbourne was also to finally get a decent trainer who could help implement my love of food, incorporate fitness and make it a viable lifestyle rather than a quick fix. I am happy to say that I now have a trainer (ThorOfOz) and things are looking up.
Last time I did this writing got me through, it was so hard and painful and exhasting and I know what lays ahead and while I am excited, I am also apprehensive about how I will tackle it this time. Incorporating this, uni and trying to have some form of social life is going to be interesting, it is also the year of Leithal the brand becoming a thing or not. This really has to be the year that I start loving myself, I have become such a unhappy and sour soul and it is not who I really am. My weight has really screwed up my confidence and I find myself not wanting to go out and do things because none of my nice clothes fit and I constantly get that look from people, you know the one who look you up and down and then eyes pop when they look at your stomach. Everytime I see it I want to say “Yeah I’ve put on weight thanks for saying something with your eyes” We live in such a superficial world and while I don’t want to be that guy, I know that losing weight and looking good is feeling good. I also don’t want to die, I always thought that if my time was up, my time was up. But lately as I have gotten older I have become more attatched to life and living. Sounds like such a weird thing to say, but it’s true. I don’t want to die, I have an amazing life, I am so lucky to live in an amazing country and I am wasting it hiding behind my insecurities and I am honestly done.
So what happens now? 3 P.T’s a week, 5 workouts a week, a change in what I eat, who I hang out with and trying to be less of a hermit. Most of all I am writing this for me, so this time I don’t forget and go back to my old ways.
This is me, weighing in at 110kgs ready for the change.
Till next time.
Goodbye Fatty! 
My Friend Alaisdair am so happy for you wanting to do this Remember what it took a few years ago and you did it well my friend if you really want this You Can Do It just always try to keep a positive mindset Of I Can and do whatever it takes to get there I know that You Csn do this again and reach your Goal I’m here to help motivate if you need All the Best Alaisdair with your weighloss Fitness journey